ever since I left NYC on October 9th, i have been rather sad on the inside. i love being in NYC so much and seeing my friend, Kristen, that coming back to Pittsburgh just brought me so down. after being in a city so alive, it just seems like Pittsburgh is boring. bad. stinky. nothing to offer me. and, i hate that all of the people that i care about so much (Dale excluded) live in other states and that i can't see them when i would like to. i have to plan ahead to see these people. i don't like that. i just need to win the lotto and move. somewhere else. anywhere else. and, i need to meet Daniel Kessler from Interpol on my next NYC visit so i can make him fall in love with me. i don't care if he lives in Brooklyn and listens to alot of reggae. i won't hold it against him, i swear. :)
after work, i went on a sort-of date. it was very interesting. boy was very cute. i think i may like him. too bad he works with me. i cannot get involved with him until he at least transfers to a different department. *sigh* such is my life, no? yeah.
yesterday, i started my campaign to find a new man. yes, it has begun. mentally, i think that autumn is the best time to fall for someone new, no pun intended. it happened to me last year. so, i'm hoping that i find someone new this year. i'm dressing really cute. and i'm just crossing my fingers. i have a boy crush at the part-time job but that's a bad idea. the whole getting involved with someone at work thing. so, while i engage in a mild work-related flirtation, i start my search for someone and something new. thus, this Saturday i am definitely going to Z Lounge for the Prometheus Burning CD release party. i am very excited about this. dang, i hope i can persuade someone to go with me. or else i don't know what i'm going to do. *sigh*
on a work-related note, i am still very upset about my horrible Racal score. it is basically a score of 10 random phone calls that i made at my part-time job. and i am scored based on several things. i usually get between 95-100% and i've scored that high ever since i started at PNC. almost 2 years. with the new supervisor, she gave me a 87%. i think its wrong still and i'm still not to happy about it. but, i can't do anything about it. i passed and i should be glad but i still don't agree with it. i was extremely upset about it last night. i'll get over it eventually but last night i was rather... shocked. and upset. oh well.
back to work or something. i am just glad it is already wednesday.
p.s. since i have started to dress cute, my bus crush has been MIA. i am also very upset by this. kthnxbye.
i have been plagued with slight headaches almost all week. i think (actually i know that i am sure) that these are stress related. working too much is slowly getting to me. and, while i know that being overworked is bad, because my vacations are coming up and i have overspent and need to save money ASAP, i am slowly starting to break down. tonight, i will attempt to relax and sleep early. i need at least 8 hours tonight. but i have house chores to do. laundry. my favourite single-girl activity. *sigh* what else can i do? i just cannot wait until i go away. seriously, that is all that is keeping me from losing it right now.
i saw my bus crush yesterday and today. yesterday he sat behind me. today he sat across from me. perhaps next week it will be next to me. i still noticed his lovely hands. i also noticed today that he wore brown shoes that were a wee bit scuffed. and, i also noticed that he has very little to no butt. this is a bit important for me. i like a guy with a little butt. but, i may be able to forgive that. and, yes, i think he is in school to be a lawyer. that's what i need. a man to take care of me. a little. not totally. just a little. money-wise. then maybe i can work only one job and be happy and have more free time. not like there is alot to do anyway, right? right. but, yes, i still like my bus crush.
i also do like a boy a my part-time job. but to me, its just a flirtation. i like to flirt. alot. this guy is much younger and not too serious. i guess it is just something to make me smile and laugh while i'm at work. is that so wrong? thought not. but, we're supposed to go out for sushi or something. i wouldn't mind, really. am i just that bored??? perhaps.
and, Fridays are good. very good. :)
hi, i'm here. new blog. just trying this out. another place for me to write useless things, i suppose... ;)
